Hello World! Time flies, isn’t it…and it has been two weeks since I last update my blog. I know the last post on my Paris trip really freak people out and especially my friends. I am not exactly okay but I am still surviving so please do not worry for me, k? It will only make me feel worst and you can help me by treating me like I am normal. I am born on the magical Gemini-Cancer cusp and this link here described very well about me. Gemini-Cancer people are the first to express emotion in any given situation, they are the first to laugh and the first to tears. Yes, I have extreme emotions and I can be happy and carefree one moment then easily turn to vengeful or emotional. Oh well.. That’s Irene for you.
I might be still a baby girl at heart but I believe I am a woman who can take care of myself. I am not a rag doll and if you think I cannot pick myself up on my own, I am so gonna tell you that you are wrong. If you want to fix me, my advice is please go and fix yourself first before you come harass me. (Honesty is a very expensive gift, don’t expect it from cheap people.) I have let myself hit an all time low and I am ready to open myself to this world again. For a change, I went to have my hair colored brown. It is troublesome because I have to spray it black when needed and I have to wash my hair 4-5 times to remove the black spray. I might be taking a longer time in the shower but this is helping me to be more clear-headed. And yups, I love my gorgeous brown hair so it is worth it!
My lovely friends, I am sure you girls know that I am too egoistic to admit that I am listening to your advices. So you can see.. I actually went cycling in Frankfurt! I am trying to lead a healthier lifestyle now and stoping myself from indulging in the negative traits. I was kind of indulging in the pain but I know I need to put a stop before I bring further harm to my body. Emotionally, I am affected of course but as time passes, I am also beginning to sober up. I am seeing this as a blessing in disguise… Sometimes you just need a major depressive episode to stimulate you to do things you always wanted and stop procrastination.
Here are some things I have done..
- Dye hair (Sick of boring and dull black hair so yeah!)
- Full leg waxing (My legs feel so smooth now. Hee..)
- Went for my much needed pedicure and manicure. I had my nails colored baby pink and not boring 50 shades of red.
- Face threading (It was pain but still bearable)
- Brazilian IPL (Not as painful as brazilian waxing which is good)
- Went rollerblading for the first time alone! Had a clumsy fall but I picked myself up and continued to blade! Bravo!
- Going for my Muay Thai trial lesson next month! (Getting myself a cool pair of boxing gloves and Muay Thai attire. Cool!)
Some more things that I want to do…
- Sun tanning (Sick of looking fair. Lol.)
- Eyelash extension
- Navel piercing
- Slim down and have a toner body (Eating more fruits and vegetables. Gonna exercise more too!)
- Get my Class 2B license! (Enrolled for 5 years and I still haven’t got my bike license. Shame on me! I will start my lessons again in September)
….And of cos, the list is still growing.
Love is like magic, you are able to experience every emotion; happiness, frustration, pleasure and hurt.
I am already a 23 years old working adult but I am guilty of behaving like as if I am in my teenagehood. He has shielded me too much that I didn’t grow up in our (almost) 5 years of relationship. Whereas for him, he has transformed from a boy to a man, a businessman to be exact. He is moving forward while I am still living in the past. The way he treats me really hurts me… But I need to grow up and see beyond that. It is the time and this is the best time to learn how to grow up. Growing up is hard but it is essential. I am eagerly looking forward to see the new and improved me, and yup, Irene with a hotter body. Lolololl… :p
Nobody’s perfect. I have my shortcomings and I am mending it. If I expect him to be a perfect lover, I have to be one myself too. I was an independent and confident woman before I met him. Hopelessly in love with him that I forgot how to love myself anymore. I have lost myself too much in this relationship and I need to find myself back again. I am taking slowly step by step to heal myself. I can do it and I know I can.
Invincible, I am Invincible! InvincibleRene!
*abrupt end to my post* cos I am tired to continue
Till then, again.
GOOD NIGHT WORLD.